He is God, you are not.

"You may have stopped following Jesus, but now you want to follow again.  When you stopped following Jesus, you did so on your terms.  But the returning to Jesus is strictly under his conditions.  He is God, and you are not.  Are you willing to follow Jesus anywhere, at any time, under any condition?  That is the only way you can follow him."

Henry Blackaby, Experiencing God Day by Day. February 19.